vilaine fille

Buon anno novello

Release the stars! Release your love!
Release the stars! Release your love!
—Sancta Rufola

vilaine fille believes that 2008 will be a spectacular year (G-d willing), a time of liberation, transformation, discovery, and joy. “Release the stars” is her anthem as she greets the future.

She wishes you and yours good health, love, and serenity in 2008. May we all:

• be open to miracles
• have (and, more important, be) someone who will walk the walk, not just talk the talk
• let go of illusions
• find the copious prize
• enjoy wicked indulgences
• be ready for love
• transform pain, if (G-d forbid) it come, into surpassing beauty
• praise G-d, though our hallelujah be cold and broken

Buon anno! Bonne année ! Best wishes for a Rufolicious year!

Special thanks to bloggers G, R, M, J-R, C, D, and FL.

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307. new discoveries and the wonderful friend who led me to them
308. being accepted and loved with lo my many flaws and weaknesses
309. opportunities to risk and grow and love
310. true friends, old and new (thank you, dear heart)
311. a heart split open like a fig
312. life

My life has improved immeasurably since I began posting these lists one year ago. Some of you were told what they are; some of you understood without being told. Thank you for the opportunity to share them. G-d bless us, everyone.

Pensée du dimanche 30 décembre

Rileggo e tutto mi sembra
cenere contrabbandata per poesia.
Sono montagne russe i nostri cuori,
la tua anima e la mia.
Sono cessati spari e grida.
Questo è il silenzio che volevamo?

E amore niente niente, amore niente passa invano,
nessun dolore, amore, amore niente passa invano…
—Massimo Bubola

Grazie dal fondo del cuore a M, K e L.

Santo Stefano

Hey, ain’t it good to know that
you’ve got a friend
when people can be so cold.
They’ll hurt you and desert you,
well they’ll take your soul if you let them—
oh, yeah, but don’t you let them…

As Aeschylus said, “The words of truth are simple.” I am so blessed. Thank you. See you in January!

Natale 2007

To all who keep the holiday, vilaine fille sends warmest wishes for a merry little Christmas, filled with good health, love, and joy for you and yours.

She sends loving heart-thoughts to faithful friends, especially those facing health challenges (beloved W, la dottoressa B, and la sor della sor).

And because she is a vilaine fille, she invites you to celebrate the holiday according to the litany of Sancta Rufola. (Don’t go all postal on me, okay?)

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301. friends—i.e. people who mean what they say and say what they mean
302. reassuring news about C
303. yet another super-fantastic SMS aus Wien!
304. that the Poste Italiane came through twice for la sor (praying for a third time + M, G, F, R, and others)
305. H*A*G  H*E*A*V*E*N
306. I don’t know where I’m going,
     but I do know that I’m walking.
     Where? I don’t know,
     just away from this love affair…
     

Pensée du dimanche 23 décembre

I’ve got a life to lead,
I got a soul to feed,
I got a dream to heed,
And that’s all I need…
Making my own way home,
Ain’t gonna be alone…
—Sancta Rufola

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295. the ability to walk away from that which is evil, no matter how seductive
296. self-love
297. opportunities to learn patience (repeat)
298. physical activity and the ability to do it
299. snow and candlelight
300. good friends and the hope (and reality) of seeing them

Thank you, AKS!

Pensée du dimanche 16 décembre

Want to buy some illusions,
Slightly used, second-hand?
They were lovely illusions,
Reaching high, built on sand.
They had a touch of paradise,
A spell you can’t explain.
For in this crazy paradise
You are in love with pain…

I sell them all for a penny—
They make pretty souvenirs.
Take my lovely illusions,
Some for laughs, some for tears.
—Friedrich Hollander, “Illusions”

Bonus, also from A Foreign Affair: “Black Market”: “No ceiling, no feeling, a very smooth routine…”

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289. Saul’s truths
290. doing one’s best, even in the face of cruelty
291. MHS, RHH, KMA, GM, and other true amiche del cuore
292. making contact with old friends
293. reality checks
294. curiosity and the beautiful surprises it brings